It's no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy.

Looks like I have...a PROBLEM.

Well I went to Club Culture last night with Krammy and Randy...cept we didn't see too much of him. Uhmm I was expecting LITTLE people, okay? Everyone there was like ten times as cool as me. Them with their footlong spikes and mohawks althought there was one girl with GODAWFUL hair. If you've ever seen Degrassi Jr High, she looked like Spikes friend with the whole head shaved cept for a little around the edges, but it had grown out like an inch. So she was left with short hair cept for some random spurts of long hair...and it just looked extremely nasty. Not to mention that her hair grew all different ways so where it was short, you could see the mess. Oh my it was horrible.

There were also some crazy people. Lots of humping going on which I didn't mind because it was mostly homosexual.

There were lots of pretty men there, but...no twelve year olds for me to rape :(

In order to try to fit in, I of course acted like an idiot as well. I was screaming quite a bit. And I had my death metal screamy growl thing...whatever you wanna call it. That made my throat hurt. And they played Spineshank and Sevendust so I sang them!! And then Eminem came on and like...I didn't understand why AT ALL but uhmm I TRIED to sing that...but I don't know the eminem lyrics too well!! I sucked a lolly instead!

Oh but I did sing the gramma song! Gramma sitting in the penis with a corner in her hand going no no no...err uhmm corner with a penis..YEAH HAIRY PENIS! I drew a penis on krammy's car!!! And I hadta breathe on it so it wouldnt disappear. I drew a vagina too. And they had BUSHES. So sexy..

So I decided I was gonna hand out sampler CDs there cuz I'm on a street team and uhh...that's my job. But people wouldn't take them!! I mean who in their right mind is gonna pass up a free CD? And it's not like they didn't have anywhere to put it cuz lots of them had emo bags. Then some random kid came up and said I looked like Avril Lavigne...actually he said "Yeah, she does look like Avril Lavigne!"...hmm NO I DONT!

Oh my computer is trying to restart.

NO!!

Haha last night, I looked at the caller ID and someone had called like ten times between 10pm and I think the last call was at 12:44am. Then I went online...which I probably shouldn't've cuz I wanna know who it was! If it was Ian, then uhmm I wanna hear what he has to say! Cept if it's bad...then he can go fuck himself.

BUT! I got kicked offline a bunch of times and so then my brother called and I just decided to stay off for thirty mins to see if this person would call again. NOPE! (well it was 2-2:30am at that point). I also fell asleep at this time.

It kinda felt like I was drunk. I woke up holding my pillow SWEARING that it was a real person! I got really confused about that one. My head was also partly on the computer and when the fan turned on, it was scary!!

OH MY SWEET JESUS! Last night we almost died!

We were driving on rt84, and just driving along twiddlee dee and this fuckin snowstorm comes outta NOWHERE. Krammy's driving with her expert skills and got us through, but like you couldn't see ten feet in frnt of you, honestly, and we couldn't see where the road was! And this lasted for a while!! At one point we were going at 25mph on a frickin highway and we STILL couldnt see anything!! So trying to see the dotted lines were a joke and umm I was looking towards the right and maybe krammy was too, but we like almost hit an exit sign...and that was really scary for me so I can only imagine how scary it was for her!!

The snow...was ridiculous!

Yes and now someone happens to be sleeping in my mommy's bed!! And it happens to be her boyfriend! This is exciting cuz it's like the first REAL clue that they're sleeping together. And I know you care...but I'm happy for her! She got out of a long long LONG relationship and was really worried about ever being with anyone else...so :) GO HER!

Ohh....what else? Oh oh...my plane leaves MONDAY. It is now Saturday. My gramma calls me up this morning, and she wants me not to go back to school this semester, but instead to go to dutchess. Dutchess Community College. The high school dropout school! Nah, there are a lot of people going to dutchess that I know, but like...Jesus...I DONT WANNA. And it's so soon! I don't know if I'll get any classes or anything. But she knows I'm miserable at school and she thinks it's a waste of money to go. Well let's see...I can't figure out how much it is, but it is damn expensive! I don't have a car or license..how would I get to school? And then stay there in between my classes cuz I have no rides? Ohhh that doesn't sound good. And I really don't wanna live at home either!

Someone...give me advice! QUICK TOO!!

Alright, I think I'm done...

Peace, Love, and Savage Garden Porn

Nikki..